Wednesday, December 15, 2010

The Big Confession...

I've written blogs over the past couple months, and then deleted them without posting.

I felt like I was complaining and I don't want to seem like I don't love Wunder Budder or that I'm not grateful for how everything has gone in this first year of business.

But then a friend reminded me that this blog was meant to be about my first year (and beyond...) in business, including the bad things.

So here's my big confession...

Starting a business is hard!

Like, really hard!

And, it's not that I didn't know it going in.. I just didn't know it, know it. 

I've discovered that it's really hard to stop working.  When I'm not making stuff, I'm researching, or improving the website, or experimenting, or ordering.. I'm the formulator, the accountant, the sales rep, the advertising and marketing team, the designer, the delivery person, the customer service, etc.. It can sometimes be overwhelming but, almost as bad, addictive!

When I start to feel overworked, I'll take a day off.. but then all that work needs to be made up.  If I take two days off.. disaster! 

So, usually I decide just to work through it until I'm so overworked, underslept and non-home-cooked-mealed out, I end up getting sick. Then I go into emergency mode and have to take days off at my "day job" so I can get work done and still try to heal.. then my paycheck decreases, more stress piles on and on and on until I start having doubts that I can make it and start to think everythingisfallingapart and I'mgoingtofail!


And then everything comes together again.

Luckily, I can look into mistakes and take something from them.. I'm really good at it.. no regrets because everything is a learning experience and learning is part of growing and growing is one of my favorite things about being alive. 

This January will be all about change.. behind the scenes... reorganizing my studio, business stuff and mind... working on wholesale and spreading (hey, spreading!) Wunder Budder further away from home... finding ways to work regular hours while still getting done what needs to get done... taking everything I've learned this year, and doing a bunch of stuff with it, all at once.  Fixing what's broken and getting ready to make a bunch of new mistakes.

I'm ok with that.


Wunder Budder
Natural skincare & aromatherapy,
handcrafted with love

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